As usual, I’m behind in my posting. We’ve been getting minor attacks since I last posted, which mean business as usual. Most of the time we take care of these attacks ourselves (Stevo and I) but if it persists we get help in the chat. Francisco, Carol and Don have been getting hit a lot harder than us but we’ve been able to make positive changes in the energy around them. We usually get attacked for helping but that’s normal.
In my last post I talked about how it’s good to get out there in the world to practice your skills, but what I’m finding lately is that it is becoming harder and harder to be around people at all. I’ve always needed a certain amount of social contact but in the last two months I’m finding it to be almost painful to be out in public, like the way you feel when you have the flu and your skin just hurts. Brushing up against someone else’s energy is just painful. I realized that my life is never going to be what you see in movies or read in books, where you have family and friends all around you and maybe they drive you crazy but you all get along and have fun and happy, laughing times with junk food thrown in. I think that’s a meme (love that word) to make most people feel inadequate because no one’s life is actually like that.
I realized that my life has been slimmed down to the things that are really important to me: sending out Love energy, helping other people learn how to do that, keeping my space clear, healing people and all the other energy work that I feel is important to help the world evolve spiritually and taking care of my physical body. Everything else just drains my energy. I’ve been letting go of a lot of energy that doesn’t serve me anymore, and for the most part that means letting go of people. It’s very difficult to be walking the spiritual tightrope right now and it can be lonely, but God gave me Stevo and my dogs and a few friends to hang onto during the tough times.
If you’re really going to do this work, you have to believe in yourself even if no one else does. You have to know that you are a good person and you are doing what you are meant to do. My Dark Night of the Soul experience that I posted about in July got me so much closer to really embracing this in my own life. It’s okay if people don’t understand what I’m doing or agree with it. It’s my life and I get to decide what I spend my energy on. I feel like it’s okay to be a bit isolated now because I can do more good for more people by focusing on the energy work instead of relationship dramas or other energy distractions.
Lately I’ve been having crystal-clear realizations about why things are the way they are, and why I am the way I am. And it’s all good, you know? This reality is a huge learning experience and it’s only a fraction of what is happening in the universe. When I can lift my awareness from 3D concerns, I get a really good feeling about what it means to be a spirit in a body at this time. I’m sure I will get knocked off my path again, because I still have a lot to learn, and it’s good to have an ego-check once in a while.
One other thing that I’ve noticed lately is that it’s much easier for me to get into a 13D space…I just have to think about it and I’m there. I think that’s a reflection of how many times I’ve had to fend off bug attacks. I’ve developed my etheric chops! I know many of you who read this blog and read the EW forum are struggling with a lot of the same things. So, all I can say today is, don’t give up! It’s a cliche, but it’s true. You can’t give up trying. Get up tomorrow and try again!